Today I woke up with a weird mixture of feelings after this past week.
A part of me was exhausted, in every sense of the word, but especially emotionally. I had put so much hope into last Tuesday's results, and when things turned out the exact opposite of what I had hoped, I was crushed. My emotions have been up, down, all around, and then back again, and now I'm just tired.
And there's also a large part of me that's restless.
The thing about elections is, once your vote is cast and you wait for the results, there's not much you can do except wait. The rest is out of your control.
I hate that feeling.
Even more so now that everything is said and done, and I'm really unhappy with the end result, my restlessness is turned up a few more notches. I want to channel it into productive energy, but I'm not 100% sure how.
I've been hearing from other people that they're ready to get back to work, back to fighting for the country they believe in, back to organizing and donating and volunteering. I salute them, but I'm not quite there yet. Even though my hands are restless to do something, I'm still not there yet.
So, I think for now, I'll be hanging out in this in-between state where I feel paralyzed about what to do next and how to move forward, but wanting to do something.
If you're also feeling this way, you're not alone! I have a funny feeling at least a few of you in this community can also relate. And yes, I know this blog post is a little bleek, and isn't wrapped up in a pretty bow with a happy ending, but that's how life feels a lot lately. For now we'll just keep breathing, praying, meditating, and trying to take it moment to moment.
Happy Sunday, friends!
XO
Megan
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